Hey Everyone!
I am Samantha. I feel the need to give you somewhat of a slight introduction but it is challenging to fit 22 (almost 23 EEEKKKK) years into a paragraph. I am probably one of the most complicated people you will ever come in to contact with, not by choice of course. I say one thing and do another. Feel one thing and say another. Why do I do the things I do? Well, if you find the answer to that through these blogs, please let me know!
Like Alex said....sometimes you just need to let it out! Trust me you will hear plenty from me...hopefully not too much!!! But for right now, I just wanted to say "Hey" and let you guys know that there really are two parts of "Just let it out girlfriend".
More to come very very soon. Promise. But we can just keep this light for now.
LOVES!!!
As always,
Samantha.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Searching for the Answers I Knew All Along -Alex M.
...I've always known this was going to be hard.. I always knew there was going to be that chance of things not working, deceit, infidelity, doubt, fear.. But I also always knew that with him is where I belong, where I wanted to be in the future, he saved me from myself, he's my best friend... But still I feel incontent. Naturally less so when things are going well and more so when things are sour.. But if he is all those great things to me, if I have been crowned with the title of the most intense degree that a relationship can be, if I have the ring to prove that I'll never be along again.. If I've have all the answers to all my concerns and questions.. then why am I still searching? Not necessarily searching for another person, but another justification.. another reason to make me believe that this was the right - or wrong - choice, to be completely honest. Apart of me always knew that this was too good to be true. A part of me always knew that the search really is over, he really is the one. I know this, I know all of this. So I suppose I shouldn't be alarmed at anything... because all along I've known the possibilities of complication and reward that this relationship could offer.
This might be forward and perhaps even premature. After all, nothing else is truly known about me other than my sign is capricorn and my best friend is Samantha. But, there's also another part of me as you can probably guess by now. I have um, another half and for cliche's sake, this person is my 'better half'. What? Better half? You mean? Yes. You're thinking right.. not only am I in a relationship, but I am the 'm' word: married. One year and ten months today, my significant other and I had a private ceremony in a small chapel. It wasn't planned and nobody other than us and the pastor was present, nor knew. No bells and whistles. No expensive gown, pages of guest list names, three-tiered cake, the perfect venue, the first dance as husband and wife, none of that. It was just me and him. Just us. It was our moment. Not my moment drenched in articulate planning.. just our moment. It was/is one of the very few moments we have together where it is just us. What do I mean by this? Well I literally mean I rarely have a moments with him, period. You see, we live 570 miles apart most of the time, some times it goes as far as oceans apart... He's military, a petty officer in the US Navy. If you're wondering how this kind of relationship works where you only see each other two, three, times a year and if you're thinking that it is 'hard'. . My answer is to the first question is: it doesn't. We barely get by, I'll admit it. And I'm not going to describe it as 'hard'.. but rather, very demanding. Yet one of the most rewarding experiences I've ever had. However, I still wonder, still hope, still worry, still dream ..I still search for those answers I knew all along...
Now aren't the waters muddied quite so?
This might be forward and perhaps even premature. After all, nothing else is truly known about me other than my sign is capricorn and my best friend is Samantha. But, there's also another part of me as you can probably guess by now. I have um, another half and for cliche's sake, this person is my 'better half'. What? Better half? You mean? Yes. You're thinking right.. not only am I in a relationship, but I am the 'm' word: married. One year and ten months today, my significant other and I had a private ceremony in a small chapel. It wasn't planned and nobody other than us and the pastor was present, nor knew. No bells and whistles. No expensive gown, pages of guest list names, three-tiered cake, the perfect venue, the first dance as husband and wife, none of that. It was just me and him. Just us. It was our moment. Not my moment drenched in articulate planning.. just our moment. It was/is one of the very few moments we have together where it is just us. What do I mean by this? Well I literally mean I rarely have a moments with him, period. You see, we live 570 miles apart most of the time, some times it goes as far as oceans apart... He's military, a petty officer in the US Navy. If you're wondering how this kind of relationship works where you only see each other two, three, times a year and if you're thinking that it is 'hard'. . My answer is to the first question is: it doesn't. We barely get by, I'll admit it. And I'm not going to describe it as 'hard'.. but rather, very demanding. Yet one of the most rewarding experiences I've ever had. However, I still wonder, still hope, still worry, still dream ..I still search for those answers I knew all along...
Now aren't the waters muddied quite so?
Friday, April 9, 2010
'First Things First' -Alex M
First things first. Who am I? Well, I am one half of 'Just Let It Out Girlfriend'. I'm Alex M. If you really wanted to get to know me, you would need a few hours, a box of tissues, and tolerance for one extraordinary story or one boring one - depending on your tastes. As far as my personality goes, my astrological sign, Capricorn mirrors the kind of person I am. I'm going to explain this because often my personality attributes are the source and the underlying reason why I 'just need to let out' my thoughts sometimes.
Capricorns.. Oh, the mountain goats. We are all about hard work. We're practical, ambitious, dedicated almost to the point of stubbornness, and are always looking to get to the top. Some people criticize us for making impulsive decisions, however little do they know that us Caps either have it all planned out or are just fearless & go confidently in the direction of our dreams (Yes, I borrowed that last part from Thoreau). We do have down falls, we're egotistical, competitive, and status concerned. However, underneath it all we are down to earth and find the greatest personal satisfaction in our successes and being an inspiration for others. We need to feel useful and effective in the real world in order to be satisfied with our lives.
Again, I went into this little digression just because you'll all see that in some way these characteristics will transcend through whatever it is i'll be writing about. You'll See... Stay Tuned!
xoxo,
Alex M.
PS - Samantha sends her love! She is currently having technological difficulties with her Mac. The Genius Bar needs to work their magic asap!
Capricorns.. Oh, the mountain goats. We are all about hard work. We're practical, ambitious, dedicated almost to the point of stubbornness, and are always looking to get to the top. Some people criticize us for making impulsive decisions, however little do they know that us Caps either have it all planned out or are just fearless & go confidently in the direction of our dreams (Yes, I borrowed that last part from Thoreau). We do have down falls, we're egotistical, competitive, and status concerned. However, underneath it all we are down to earth and find the greatest personal satisfaction in our successes and being an inspiration for others. We need to feel useful and effective in the real world in order to be satisfied with our lives.
Again, I went into this little digression just because you'll all see that in some way these characteristics will transcend through whatever it is i'll be writing about. You'll See... Stay Tuned!
xoxo,
Alex M.
PS - Samantha sends her love! She is currently having technological difficulties with her Mac. The Genius Bar needs to work their magic asap!
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